hello all..

the 21st was DONO and mines 5month anniversary. he got out of school early so i picked him up and we spent the hour and a half together in the car.. well i spent my time driving him to walmart and seafood city.. haha.. but its all cool. i kno that he cares because he was telling everyone around us that it was our 5months. hehe .. i love him soo much.. well after i dropped him off at with his friends i headed off to work and had an ok time.. those kids are really annoying.. but oh well those are kids for you.. after work my dad picked my up and went back home.. ate dinner and headed to my babes house.. we spent most of the time just messing around with each other... actually HE was messing with me.. hes soo rude!! haha jk i dont kno why but for some reason he likes to do the things i tell him NOT to do.. like slapp me in th face [not hard.. but still hes sush a lil retard!] tickle me.. and he knos im hella ticklish and i hate it.. lay on me with all hs goshdarn friggen weight.. and squeeze me... i dont kno hes abusive!! ahha jk i kno thats his way of showing he loves me and i attack him back showing that i love him too.. haha well i left around 10.30 bc my father was being gay and my mom didnt want to help me out.. ahha

yesterday had school.. had to drop off my lil bro and decided i wanted a jamba juice.. so got that plus an apple cinnimon [sp?] pretzel.. i love jamba juices pretzels, thier soooo  tastey! ahha then off to school i went boring as usual..blah. after went home and "myspaced" for a lil and played a lil party poker and LOST ALL OF MY DAMN MONEY!! babe you have to help me win it back!! ahha then at 2 went off to work.. got off early at 5.30 and headed home.. stupid father said i couldnt go to my babes house but whatever.. talked to my babe on the fone instead all nite about everything and anything.. ahha we`re wierd? ahha then got off the fone close to 12 bc he had to wake up early in the morning..

today woke up around 10 bc no school today.. and alli have be doinis myspaceing and this.. i gotta get ready soon for work and im kinda hungry.. and i still need to clean up my damn room.. gosh! ahha i think i should do that after i do this.. yea i will.. well i get to see my baby later today.. he come`n over.. YAY! his bdays come`n up next month.. and he already knows what ima get him.. hes such a sneaky lil terdhead.. oh well hope you had fun reading this.. have a great day oh and dont forget to smile! g`bye!

love, MEA

so yea lately theres been alot on my mind.. and its basically about EVERYTHING. ranging from fam, friends, school, work, relationships, responsibilities, myself.. LIFE in general. and its all just so complicating.. well of corse life always has those obstacles and challenges that you go through.. but it all seems so different now as im getting older bc i dont have the same kinda help that i had before.. i dont got the same kinda anything anymore, and if just frustrates me that i cant go back to the way i had it before bc in life theres no "rewind" button, theres just "play" and there you go.. but i just wish i could, but then on the other hand i dont.. im just lost in my own world, looking for a way outa all this confusion. comparing my life to a game.. its like life has this whole new level that im on with new responsibilities and its all a "do it your sef" situation. i mean i LOVE being more independent with my life.. dont get it twisted. but its just not all that peaches and pie when you gotta ride solo for most of it. i mean yea i got a few friends i`ll see here and there and i got my lovely boyfriend, but theres still something thats just not.. i dont really kno but its just not ______. nahmean?! yea yea i kno your thinking, "why dont you talk to someone, or yadda yadda yadda" i mean i would but the best friend got her thang going and havent seen her lately bc we both got work now and stuff. kizzos.. we all grown and busy. fam.. dont really want talk to them bout my issues. and the bf.. i dont kno.. havent really had a "deep serious convo" with him yet.. really dont kno how it`ll go. and i know im not outa options there are more possibilities out there but i donno.. its just unknown for me right now.. i just gotta help myself first before i go to others for help.. nahmean?! well i guess thats all i gotta say.. g`nite to whoever is reading this.. much love.

meagan L.

im IN love.. soo in LOVE. L-O-V-E! with DONOVAN JEREMY C.C. RAYOS DEL SOL! yaadddahhheardme!!!!! damn he`s such a cute one! and he`s such a GENTLEMAN!

k bye folks!

WOW.. long time. well durrrrrr..hmmm well im here to update, obviously. um yea i GRADUATED! yessirry MEAGAN`s a GRADUATE! haha damn man.. it took a long time but shit i did it! haha um oh yea no more bf.. blah. long story short.. we`re just frens now. it was a long stressful, tearful, heartache-ful week and how many days, but yes just frens now. oh well. hmmm workn on my cotillion yes yes im havin one! its hella excitin but also stressful.. [man no wonder im breakn out.. sheeeeet!] dealn the invites, dances, people, outfits/costumes, decorations, and blah blah blaah! hmm what else.. oh the famz.. same as always.. livn it up.. ahah gettn back in "touch" with errbody in the familia.. i love those guys! ahha.. oh and my makamae famz.. love them too.. its like a second famz that i can go to if i need anything.. ohk picture time. YAY!

some ladies & i w/ our instructor at her wedding..

me being stupid bc im bored.. haha

cheese!

mellow yellow..

rds brothers actn stupid.. they fine though.. haha ew their like brothers to me.. ahah but they still fine ahha

well my comps slow so i cant upload anymore.. so yes time to go.. much love.. LATER!

-MEAGAN

Why hello! hmmm... there`s just so many things going through my head now a days. Confusion, annoyning, sadness, anger, happiness and so much more. Its just kinda overwhelming for me right now, i think i just need a breather from EVERYTHING. That would be a big help, i think. well yes yes i shall let you depart from my problems and start talking about how i`ve been.

Life... its been aiight, ups and downs here and there but who doesnt have problems? nobody`s perfert. School... its going good, to me i think im doing A LOT better than the beginning of the school year. working hard and gettin my diploma. HA! Hubskee... him and i are doing good, getting through those things that all relationships go through, its normal. Extras... my workout! ahha im gettin toned! ahha getting some muscles, ERRRRRR! imma have me some FISHERMAN MUSCLES! haha. OH! my senior ball dress! its mad sexy dood! i even got sexy shoes to match it, aaaaaaawww dizzam! MEAGAN`z ON FIRE! HA! well thats all for now later dudes & dudettes! much mahal!

-meagan l. cheeze!